Immobilized by the thought of you. Paralyzed by the sight of you. Hypnotized by the words you say.

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Happy Wednesday all!

Guys… I am not sure that it has hit me that I am actually a college student, that I will be walking this campus everyday for the next few months and then again in January… and so on. Every time I was on campus previously I spent a maximum of 2 days and then went home, never any permanence. Now, even though I am living at home, I spend so much time here that it is starting to slowly sink in that this is where I am for a while. I love it here, honestly. It is a HUGE change from my little high school, in one building, with the same teachers, and with the same students, but it is fantastic.

I don’t know if it is the ability to reinvent myself or the freedom that comes with it, but even though I am busy, IT’S SO AWESOME! No one here knows me, I haven’t grown up with these people. In high school everyone knew everyone. For the most part, we had grown up together. Here, it is so different, I know no one, and no one knows me. They don’t know what a stupid kid I was in middle and early high school. They didn’t see that phase. They haven’t seen the little “emo” kid thing I did for a while. (It was HORRIBLE.) I love this.

How are you other freshmen adjusting to campus life?

Title Lyrics: Shiver – Maroon 5 



The time has come, to stand for all we believe in. So I, for one, am gonna give my praise to You.

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Happy Tuesday! So, a continuation of this weekend, sort of. Sunday night was my first night at Wakulla, as an official intern. It was absolutely awesome. It was just me, Wesley, and Josh there with the about 10 youth kids. I was super pumped to be there! I got put back running slides and sitting in the sound room. Doing “techy” stuff has never been something I’ve done. It was whole new experience for me! SO CRAZY! I had absolutely no idea what I was doing, but it was so cool to see it all work out in the end. God is so awesome! I loved getting to meet some new people and seeing some familiar faces. It truly was wonderful to be there!

Monday was quite a day for me as well. As many of you may know, we’ve got a hurricane coming. Down here in Florida, we are prepping for a pretty serious storm. We are getting some seriously mixed messages about this storm. We’ve heard that it’s going to be a catagory 2 hurricane and we’ve also heard that all we’ll get is rain. Who knows? Whatever happens, happens and God will take care of it. We are prepared, so no need to stress. Who knows, maybe it means I won’t have class on Wednesday!

Anyway, Monday was my FIRST DAY OF CLASS! I only had one class and all we did was go over the syllabus, but it was still awesome and I am super excited for this year! It’s going to be fantastic! I had environmental science on Monday and I am thrilled to see what is to come in that class because that is something I am interested in, doing my part to help God’s creation function better.

What classes are you excited to take? What classes are you not so pumped to be taking?

Title Lyrics: The Time Has Come – Hillsong United 


I need You, Jesus, to come to my rescue. Where else can I go? There’s no other name by which I am saved.

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So, this weekend has been a whirlwind for me. Two absolutely amazing things have happened, one a little more frivolous and silly than the other, but nonetheless amazing. Friday began as usual, with a post and taking my sister to school. I went to lunch with a friend of mine and we talked about a number of things.

One thing that has been discussed since Cassidy left, is interning at Wakulla. Before she left, Cassidy was an intern at Wakulla United Methodist Church youth group. She helped out with the youth group and worked with the kids. Now that she is gone, Josh needed a replacement. For a while now I have been feeling like interning somewhere was where I was supposed to be right now. I didn’t know where God was calling me to intern, but I knew it was supposed to be somewhere. I didn’t really want to do it at Calvary because I just don’t feel as strong of a connection with them as I do other groups. I guess maybe because I know most of them and am close friends with them. I don’t know.

Anyway, so when this opportunity came up, I prayed about it and… It’s Official! I am an official intern at Wakulla United Methodist Youth! I am so pumped!

The next awesome thing that happened, happened later that day. I have been saving for a while, not with a real goal in mind, but just saving for something in the future. My laptop has been slowing down pretty significantly recently, and I could tell it was getting close to time to replace it. I’ve had it since 9th grade, it was my first laptop and it’s been through a lot of wear and tear. So, Friday night I bought my very first “big ticket item.” I bought a Macbook Pro! SO PUMPED! It seriously is absolutely amazing! I love it so much!

This weekend was absolutely amazing, but more on that tomorrow!

Title Lyrics: Resuce – Newsong 



You mend my life with Your holy fire. You cover me with grace. You are the hand that reaches out to save!

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I hope you all have had a wonderful week so far!

These past few weeks have been a real growing up experience for me. My friends have moved away, off to college. I’m starting college in a few days. I do pretty much everything on my own. I drove to freaking Ft Lauderdale and back. That’s seven hours… one way people! Never done that one before. I’ve stayed in a hotel room without an “adult.” So many things are changing in my life.

One thing I am really learning right now is to trust God, especially in this last week. For those that know me this isn’t news, but I am sorta a control freak. I would rather do everything myself. Having anyone drive my car drives me nuts. I would rather do something, and know I’ll do it the way I want it, than have someone else (who is probably equally qualified) do it for me. Anyway, one thing I have learned is that I am not in control. This whole weekend, with all the roadblocks that came up left me completely frazzled. I couldn’t even think properly. I know that we couldn’t have done ANYTHING that happened this weekend without God. How else could you explain $2200 in two days, or a place for us to sleep, or the ability to drive down there, or the exact amount of money we needed for gas? It could only be God.

I am learning to relinquish some of my treasured control. Thank the Lord that the One who is in control is so much better and more qualified than I am. He has so much more perspective than I have.

Title Lyrics: I Am Set Free- All Sons and Daughters 

What are you learning right now?


The taste of her breath, I’ll never get over. And the noises that she made kept me awake. The weight of the things that remain unspoken, built up so much it crushed us everyday.

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Sorry the blog has been so silent for… 3 weeks… I wish I had some excuse, but I really don’t, I am just incredibly lazy and I would rather stay up until 2 am watching Burn Notice/Lost than write up a post. I know… I suck.

Anywho. Let’s see past three weeks summed up… CRosSWILD, church events, doctor’s appointments, lazying around, spending time with friends, friends LEAVING FOR COLLEGE, friend getting MARRIED… Yeah, I think that sums it up.

I feel so old at this moment, I have many friends leaving for college this week, many of my closest friends. I have a friend who is only a year older than me who got married!!! I have known her for what feels like forever, and she got married! I just feel like a lot in my life right now is transitioning into adulthood, I go to appointments, set things up, fill out forms, and do all that on my own. So many of the things my parents used to do for me, I am now doing. I haven’t even started college yet, and I already feel like an adult. It’s a rather strange phenomenon. Even my dress has changed. I feel like I have started dressing more like an adult than before. It’s  BLOWING MY MIND. Pardon my child moment there.

For those of you incoming freshmen out there, what’s going through your head? For those not freshmen, what went through your head when you were a freshmen?

Title Lyrics: Won’t Go Home Without You – Maroon 5 


F-L-O-R-I-D-A S-T-A-T-E. Florida State, Florida State, Florida State. Woo!

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So, I said if be back today, so here I am. Terribly sorry for the sudden MIA-ness, I was really sick for quite a while and really couldn’t do much of anything, then I got unbelievably busy getting ready for graduation, then I got super lazy. So, that’s where I’ve been for the last few weeks. I just got back from orientation yesterday afternoon. Now that was quite an experience.

It wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. I was slightly nervous about it because I was going to have to navigate FSU’s campus without anyone I knew, specifically my parents or friends, to guide me. It wasn’t bad though, the navigation part. Honestly, the only part that wasn’t so great was the lack of sleep. I don’t really know what it was, but I just couldn’t sleep, not even when I was being woken up at 5:45, yesterday morning. The food was fantastic, the campus is absolutely beautiful, the people were pretty cool, and the orientation leaders were great. The sessions were all very helpful and this has made me super excited for school in the fall. I got all registered for classes and, though I’m still a little nervous about the navigation part, I’m super excited to be a Nole.

Are you excited about college? Why or why not?

Title Lyrics: FSU Fight Song

Go Noles!

You don’t wanna lose it again, but I’m not like them. Baby, when you finally get to love somebody, guess what. It’s gonna be me

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The past few weeks I have spent feverishly addressing graduation announcements, filling out forms, and generally preparing for graduation and college. I know I have said this probably four hundred times, and I will probably say it another hundred in the next few weeks, but graduation is right around the corner. College is coming rapidly. I will no longer be a high school student in less than a month. WOAH!  That does not even seem possible.

Yesterday Brian and I were looking through each of our time lines of Facebook, all the way back in 7th and 8th grade. It it so funny how that seems like just yesterday, but also a millennium ago.  It feels like just yesterday we were sitting in the library receiving our Macbooks for school. Back when the hardest thing we had to deal with was AP European History. (not that the class wasn’t super hard, but in the grand scheme of things… seems sort of smallish). Before JREX, before college applications, before Winter Exs, before Leadership Camp, before I Week. Before all those things that seem to have been going on forever. Before The Hunger Games got big. Before One Direction… Before… Justin Bieber. Before iPhones. Before iPods. Before touch screens.

I love thinking back to times when the cartoons were Rugrats, Hey Arnold, Catdog, Rocket Power; when pop music was Backstreet Boys, N’Sync, Destiny’s Child, Aaron Carter. Oh to be back in those times. So much easier.


My last class as a high school student is a week from tomorrow. I apologize that I get a little reminiscent and thoughtful.

Anything you’d like to reminisce on?

Title Lyrics: It’s Gonna Be Me – *N SYNC


Kneeling on this battle ground. Seeing just how much You’ve done. Knowing every victory, was Your power in us.

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Happy Wednesday! As I was reading last night during my quiet time, I read Proverbs 16:33. In the NLT, this verse says, “We may throw the dice, but the Lord determines how they fall.” I LOVE how this translation puts it. We can go for something and have it all planned out, but in the end, God dictates the outcome.

With my college plans, I can plan and plan and keep planning, but God will ultimately put me where He wants me. If I am supposed to go to a specific college, God will open that door and close the other. Where God guides, God provides. God is in control, ultimately.

With my mission trip to Panama, it may seem like a big weight on my shoulders to act as a translator of sorts, but God is in control. He will give me the perfect opportunities. He isn’t going to give me something that is too much for me to handle. It may be more than I think I can handle, but God knows my real breaking point. He knows it all, so even though some decisions may seem like my own, they are in God’s hands.

We may throw the dice, but God determines how they fall.

Title Lyrics: Never Once – Matt Redman 

Just some thoughts for this lovely Wednesday.
What do you all think about this?


Ohh Miss international love. Ohh Miss international love.

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This semester is flying by, I mean already first month back is almost over. I am graduating in a matter of months, like only a few months. six months from now, I will have graduated, I will no longer be a high school student. It still has not clicked in my head that my high school career is coming to a close, that I am truly growing up. When you are younger, you goyear to year, without much recongition, I mean, thirteen to fourteen, sixteen to seventeen, nothing real changes. But, then you reach your eighteenth birthday. It still doesn’t make sense to me that my eighteenth birthday is a few weeks away. I will be voting in this election, I can buy spray paint, I am an… adult.

In the next few years, my friends will start getting married, a few years after that they will begin to have kids. We will grow up and graduate from college, we will move on with our lives and jobs. Some of us will stay here, others will leave this little old city, some will leave this country. We will all go in different directions. So many of my friends who have already graduated are in college hundreds of miles away. More than one of my friends are preparing to leave for the military (yeah, Joshua and Winston that is your guys). Life is coming at us, fast. We have to make decisions, where we will go to college, what we want to do with our lives, who we will vote for, where we will live, what are lives are to be like.

Things are getting ready to change a lot for us. I don’t know about anyone else, but I am a mite bit excited about it. I like the idea of change, of possibly living by myself. I am excited to move on from high school and take some charge of my life. I know it will be hard, but God is good, and He has a plan for my life. I trust Him with my life. God has got me, He knows the best plan, for His greatest glory, and my greatest good.

Title Lyrics: International Love – Pitbull feat. Chris Brown

What is changing in your life right now? Where do you think you will be in 6 months, a year, 5 years?


I’ve never seen a smile that could light the room like your’s… would it be okay, if I took your breath away?

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I love relaxing days, where you get all your responsibilities done in a reasonable time frame and have time to just sit and maybe even breathe. Soccer practice was a breeze, got to see a good friend, got ahead on my AP studies, caught up in my online courses, received an acceptance letter from the college I would like to go to, life is good.

It is days like these that remind me to stop and look for God. I know He is there always, but sometimes in the hustle and bustle of daily life, I forget to look for Him. But in these times, where I do not have to be going at a million miles an hour all day, it is easier to see the simple things, His love, mercy, grace, compassion. It is wonderful.

Title Lyrics: You Had Me at Hello – A Day to Remember

What do you all like to do when you have a little relaxation time?